...MY WORK...
...For me to try and descripe the images that
i create is very hard. i've re-written this single paragraph quite
a few times so far. My work (which i am purposefully not calling
Art) is ofcourse at its lowest level a reflection of what was going
on in my mind, life, and soul at the time of the creation. i imagine
that if you invested enough time observing me and then comparing
it to the image's that i create, one could probably unravel me,
make me transparent. i work with this constantly on my mind, i ask
myself a lot of questions because of this. i don't believe any one
who creates something visual exscapes asking themselves the same
questions that i do. To me the bare action of creating an item to
be viewed is an involving process of self analysis.
...My Medium...
...An image can be expressed and shared in countless
possible ways. For the classical paint and canvas, to film, to motion
film, etc. etc. My choice to committ all of my images to digital
formats, and to create in a digital eniviroment was not only a natural
choice, but it also has a reflection of the creationary process
that each of my images goes through. In the digital enviroment there
is no such thing as a finished project, and that is my attraction
summarized. When a painting is created, or a photo is taken is has
a beginning (the inspiration), a middle (the effort, IE forming
the canvas, sketching, or setting up lighting), and an end (the
finished piece, or photo). But in a digital enviroment the piece
can never really be finished, once put into existance it can always
be changed, re-edited, even with the semi-finality i have placed
on each piece by displaying it, it can not stop me for changing
it, or even stop others for taking the image and editing it. Not
only do i feel connected to this type of working enviroment, but
i feel that this enviroment more accurately represents how i want
my work to be viewed or interacted with. The connection with the
viewing/interaction of my work and the work itself is important
not only because of the sublime actuality, but because of the representation
of myself in my work, and my own personal beliefs.
...My Beliefs...
...Although covered more indepth in other parts
of this site, i feel that its important for my beliefs to be mentioned
albiet briefly here. I do not view life/reality in the same way
that i was forced to as a child, and many of you also. For me, and
i believe many of my audience, i believe the enviroment of our growth
set us up to believe that all life has inherent structure's. Structures
that all things must adhere to, as if life was binded to a course
of action. By this i am not just addressing enviromental laws, (physic's
and so forth) but i mean to address life in all of its states, for
the actual (physical) to the vage (spirituality), and not only reality
but non-reality [excuse me on this, a link will be added soon].
We as humans tend to interact with all things under the same guidelines
( I.E. if something was uncomfortable before it will continue to
be uncomfortable). We fully believe in all of our exprience's and
look ahead in that belief that those exprience's will govern what
we will see there. I have made, no, forced myself to try and give
up this programming. i do not think that i should try and live based
on my past, or force any future events to adhere to what i exprienced
in retrospect. This is very difficult orcourse, due to the prior
20 years of my life in which i lived with in my old confines.
...In essence if i had to summarize how i see
life it would be like a river. If one was to observe a river for
a day, then leave, and return the to the river later on with in
a span of weeks, the river would look very much the same, and one
could almost start to believe that the river would look like that
all the time. one might (most likely) make the mistake of believing
that this river is the "same" as it was the other day.
In actuality the river is different every single second, the water
is moving through it, the water we view is never the water we viewed
before, even if it is behaving in a manner that we already observed.
The river like life has many further complications to it, it will
be viewed differently be each indivual that approaches it, it hides
things with in it that we can not fully see or observe of appriecate
at all times. It has currents that change rapidly with nothing governing
it but the impedment of a few small rocks, and it has currents that
might pull water through it for the same way for century's.
...My Hope...
...Why? The eternal question, and as i right this
i ask myself. Why do i write this, why do i create images. i can
not risk an answer, but i have an opinion, i create my work, i share
my thoughts/ beliefs/ idea's/, because it creates a weakness with
in me. i have always believed that hope creates weakness. but by
creating anything, my work in general, is to hope that some one
will view it, and that it will change them, and the way they view
the things around them. i fight against having this hope, but i
can not give it up. and i can not stop creating...
